I love starry nights. I like how i can see the stars, try to count them and look out for my 3 favourite stars. I like how the moon makes the night so peaceful and calm, how quiet.. Too quiet that everyone can hear me; that i cannot be too loud. So i bottle them up when darkness falls in. Its been a while since i did that. I thought i do not have to do that so soon. Prove me wrong. Make this right. Work it out. Gd night, night, stars and moon. I would like company to spend time with you 3 again.

Hiak hiak i enlarged my earlobes....................................................... Not. The surgery dressing. Tmd ugly.

I'll be undergoing a plastic surgery tomorrow. No, i'm not getting a nose job even though i wish i am but i'm just going to have the keloids on my ears removed. Disgusting lumps got to go. Its just a minor operation though but i'm afraid it'll hurt since i'd be awake throughout the whole surgery The other day i went for consultation, the doctor said that it'd hurt a little and they are only going to numb my ears. Gosh.. And thinking of how painful its going to be after the numbness wears off and when i shower and when i sleep.. But anything, for the sake of removing them and getting my pretty ears back. Anything. Even if it is going to leave scars, i guess its better than having these ugly lumps.

My appointment's at 10am which is approximately 7.5hours left. School's at 8 but i'd be skipping classes.. Well for the 3rd day already. I almost self-declare holidays but i'm not done with projects yet. I hope i can go back school for 12pm lecture because its the last. And you know what last lectures mean- Revision lectures. Practically tells you whats important and whats not for exams.

In any way, i still have to go back school for project meeting even if i have a MC to cover me for the whole day. This is how bad projects are treating me. I cannot rest because there's 2 presentation this week and another 2 next week. And whats worst is that one of the presentation falls on this Saturday. My weekends are very precious to me and they, of all days, have to put it on a Saturday! I have to do my CNY shopping that day and attend my secondary school class reunion dinner later that night. My Friday is definitely burnt since i have to do last minute preparation for my presentation the next day.

On the other hand, i dont mind burning this Friday unless i have company for the whole night. Hopefully. Cant wait!

Hello there.

I hate Sundays because it means the end of the weekends, school the next day and another 5 days till Friday again. But its ok, i shall listen to Weekends by The Perishers to make me feel that Friday is actually not that far away.

I got a hair cut 2 days ago. Layered my hair and i kinda regretted it. Now i cant tie plaids without having little bunch of short hairs sticking out but my old hair was a little out of shape so i had the urge to cut it. Ok la maybe it doesnt look that bad. A lot of people say that it looks just the same.

Sometimes there's some things I wish I didn't know or see because it makes me upset. The feeling is just like the pair of shoes I like but I cannot get it because I know I cannot afford it or it ran out of sizes. So there's nothing I could do other than to ignore it. But somehow I feel glad that I knew about it, at least I know what to expect or at least I know what's honesty.

Basically, i'm running out of things to write about, apart from school. Well there's a couple of things but its not time yet. School's great for now since debarment period is over. Which means i can start skipping classes, but it is rather pointless for me to do so since most of the time i have to go back school for project meetings, so i might as well just attend.

Its sad to know that school is coming to an end in less than a month time. I was too blind and ignorant in the past to bother about my classmates. Now that we are hanging out more often, i realised how fun and loving they are. But i guess its better late than never.

Anyway there's Tu Tu Kueh at the North Canteen which i believe its newly opened during my attachment period. I have this habit of staring at the person making them. From scooping the flour to placing them in the plastic bag. My favourite part is when they'll fill the mould with the flour after putting in the peanut bits. I'd like to observe every single part to the extend that i'd wanna own one at home so i can play with it. I'd get really annoyed if the Tu Tu Kuehs are not done properly like its falling apart or i can see part of the fillings. I guess i am anal like that. I like my kuehs pretty before i eat them. I think i shall eat them again when i go school later.

There's so many things going through my mind. So much to worry about.

I cant wait for Friday.

Someone should just lock my credit cards so that i will not spend on unneccessary things anymore. First, i am not getting allowance next month because i busted my credit card. Second, i am not getting allowance anymore since February will be my last month of school but i hope that my mom will not notice. Third, I am left with 7 bucks in my wallet until god knows when. Fourth, i cannot get a job yet because of exams. Fifth, my credit card for next month is going to bust again cos somehow i am surviving on that for now.

I actually thought of a few ways to solve this. Get money from my dad to buy CNY clothings, then save the remaining. Survive on my ang pao money. Exchange my US and Baht notes. Give up Paramore and sell my ticket. Borrow from my mom first.

Ok i shall think abt it.

Projects are killing my social life. I haven't been going out for the past few days and last week. Only managed to hang out last weekend to catch up with some of my favourite people. This week is madness. I go home straight after school and project meetings. TGIF, not. I have to stay for 2 project meetings until god knows what time and on Saturday as well. I guess Sunday is my only rest day. Need to make time. Sorry, i've been really busy.

Sleepy time, not enough rest either.

I wish my pimples will go away but thanks to the poor lighting in my room and the lousy webcam which produces grainy photos, my pimples are not visible.

Good night cyber space, but i cant sleep. I'm pretty worried about my friends whom are still out at this hour. Please get home safe.

We almost screwed up the presentation just now but it was fine in the end. Oh no, got back my test paper, 28 out of 50. MCQ screwed up, Question 12 screwed up. I'm so hopeless. But on a happier note, i got full marks for Question 13 hehe i should revise and study soon. Good bye.

Cherry knots, anyone?

I dedicate my whole of this week, until Friday, doing project, nothing but projects. Maybe with the exception of Wednesday night, i'll put it on hold first since its not confirmed but i highly doubt i can go since i have yet to think about the technology for the Entrepreneurship idea. Am waiting to compile the report for tomorrow's submission so i can start on the executive summary. I should start part of MCE project and paint my nails for tomorrow's Entrepreneurship photo shoot. I am sleep deprived. I can't even take my medicine because i am afraid i'd fall asleep. I predict i'd be zombiefied when i wake up in the morning for class, for presentation, for the whole day. Good day.

Just yesterday night i was trying to sleep after i took my cough syrup but i couldn't. My throat was giving me hell. Suddenly, it started to itch and all, triggered the non-stop coughing which disrupted me from my sleep for an hour until i took another brand of cough syrup which helped. Then i woke up the next day to an aching stomach. Not stomachache but literally aching. Too much coughing from last night, i think if this carry on, i will have abs soon. Maybe its a blessing in disguise. Anyway just got back from Cuscaden an hour ago. Long live my throat. I wish i can still hear you after i wake up. I am a sick child.

I went to see the doctor in early afternoon. He was taking my blood pressure and i started laughing maybe because it was a little ticklish and he stared at me. I think he's very unfriendly.. Or i am just weird but i think not. So i got my meds, took them just now and i think i can sleep soon. The drowsiness is kicking in already. I love cough syrup. Good night.

Oh i am enrolling into UQ tomorrow. Can't wait.

I am so forgetful. I forgot there's project meeting in the morning so i rushed down to school, but i remembered to get my transcript for the university enrolment, even though my mom refuse to let me go Aussie now because she knew i'd become a havoc there, i am still going to try for a position in UQ. Then happily, i left school for home. Bought my bubble tea and got on the bus, couldnt wait to get back and rest. Then i received a text from my classmate, reminding me that there's another project meeting at 330pm. Time check, 320pm. I alighted and took a cab back to school. I am so forgetful.

Toke just texted me this:

"Knn fucking retarded i thought i saw you then i OI so loud turns out its not you AHAHAHAHA CB"

and later..

"No you don't get it srsly thought it was you. The way the girl walk and her hair and the legs. Confirm Money Changer( I dont know why he calls me that) one! Then i see the angmo guy. Confirm that friend of hers one! Then i from the back walk to the side. Then i see like more and more familiar. Then i fucking loud OI. KNN Then its not i fucking paiseh. Then i kenna shock ah. Then they keep looking at me sia cb then i say sorry i thought you were my friend -___-"

Haha! Woke me up from my drowsy state!

Pancakes with sausage for breakfast, finally. Have been craving for it but i felt like i've sinned. Heavy breakfast and i am sick again, supposed to have light breakfast and to add on, yesterday night i had Cuscaden wings and icecream. Both times i drank Coke light to make myself feel better. Ironic i know but its all in the mind. I think i have a weak immune system. I'm falling sick every month. Always down with cough and slight fever. This time round i've got a sore throat to accompany them. Might be because of too many late nights and alcohol. I am not an alcoholic but i need my weekly fix of D.D. or S.H.S.D. night. Blame Esther.

I spent my weekends sleeping.. For 29 hours in total. I woke up just 1.5 hours ago, felt like i had a hangover. I left my laptop on as usual, too many notifications from Facebook. Damn too much. But the photos from the parties were uploaded. I thought i lost my camera. Actually it's with Felicia, she took it from me at the Bloody Beetroots set and left. BB was awesome. Best. Not their best since it only lasted 1.5hours, but best for me plus all the non stop high-ness. I stayed home for 2 days already. I hate how the world is small like that, i hate how cyber world connects everyone together and most importantly, i hate the nightmares you are giving me, like what the Hammerfall's song- Never, Ever says: "Nightmare this may be, but it is not a dream." and i will face it.

I'm living to this one important rule now. Humans have no feelings.

Win.

Yesterday's party was awesome even though the bachelorette didnt turn up. Before i head down to Nick's place, Happy New Year!

I'm in school now for project meeting but on msn we are discussing about tonight! Guess what i had fun for the past 5 days! I am completely in love with Decemeber which i shall name it the party season for me.

My first time at Phuture was awesome. From the moment when Jen said: "Jm, this is Phuture", i knew that i will never step into Bump anymore. I never knew that i could dance to RnB apart from Electro and Trance, +1! The next day, the gang had a wonderful impromptu not-so-Christmasy party (too last minute to get a present) over at my place. With only less than 10 people, i have to say that we had fun still, +1!. I woke up at 6pm on Christmas to find that i had spent most of my time sleeping and headed to Dempsey to meet my Poly classmates for Ben & Jerrys and later Loof and Supperclub. I love my classmates already, +3!!!

Finally, i took a rest on 26th supposedly celebrating Angeline's birthday but due to some unforseen circumstances, -1, we postponed it to 27th and it was Epic. Potluck and not forgetting the first-time-ever 37 successful underwater (chui) shots, +2!!. And the next day i stayed home and watched This Is England, Lords of Dogtown and an episode of How i Met your Mother, +3!!! So last night i found out that there's Popeyes at AMK when i met my Secondary classmates for a mini Christmas exchange present gathering. +1!

Tonight is Ayu's Bachelorette party at Supperclub + freeflow, tomorrow is NYE at Nick's with 50L of beer and Beetroots on the 1st, +3!!!

Can't wait!

Total, +12!!!!!!!!!!!!

My yesterday morning face. I am a champion for posting my messy hair and make-up-less face on Facebook. I was supposed to post this yesterday but i was already late for Angie's birthday. I love you bff squeaky squirrel luv.

I talk a lot of nonsense when i am high. Nonetheless i had fun. Next Stop, Ayu's Party.

Just painted candy swirls on my nails. Looks kinda horrible close up but from far nobody will notice hehehehe. I need top coat!

Ok i'm still wide awake. I wanna sleep cos i think there is project meeting tomorrow. I feel like shouting tamade really loudly and punch/break everything around me, i think its the pms. Last day of work tomorrow and i still need a job badly because i am so afraid to see my credit card bill for this month. Fortunately Indian did not manage to persuade me to get that top and skirt from Topshop. I don't wanna step inside cos i know i'd see something i like and yet they forced me. I had supper after a long time of not having it and now i feel guilty. I wanna sneeze but i can't and now my nose is blocked. I need to off the lights, the switch is so far away, i am so lazy. I am craving for bubble tea.

Poptart wasn't as bad as the last time. I thought it would suck since its Indie music and all and who the hell dances to Indie? Its like dancing to R&B, so un-danceable but somehow we had a slut dance slash tecktonic dance to it which was so wrong and weird but funny yet retarded because the music doesn't match. After that i came to a conclusion that its the company which makes the party fun, then the alcohol and lastly the music. So i was pretty high when everything ended because of the vodka and beer mix drink and Smirnoff shots. But.. right at the end when Eileen left with her bf.. Spotted, LDB. I felt like a stranger.. Its not the first time i felt that way anyway, i really should just get used to it. People come and go.

Holly molly, i like my mickey hat but my face looks fat.

What is on my bed now:

Earpiece, Soft toys, Pillows, Blanket, Chocolate Swiss roll (in box), Flyers from yesterday's roadshow, Pouch, Decision Science homework, Jeans, Jacket, Juice Magazine, Bag, Laptop, Mickey mouse hat, RK's sweater, Ice lemon tea bottle, another bag, Laptop Charger and Hand phone charger.

If you're wondering if i am that untidy, yes. If you're wondering if i sleep on a queen/king size bed, no. I am just bored, tired and sick again. I don't wanna sleep yet because K is not sleeping. Maybe playing game. Is there a soccer match later? I kinda like watching soccer now. Maybe i should bet on one of the team so that i can feel the thrill even more but i'd get so annoyed after watching especially when the team you support is losing and each time they get a chance to score they screw it up big time. Nevermind, not exactly a fan.

Retarded face but anyway just to show off my Lilo and Stitch tattoos!

Outside B504 waiting for my turn for my CRM telemarketing test. I hope my 4 months attachment at Ibis reservation department will save my ass. These few days i've been terribly happy for no apparent reasons. I found myself smiling and laughing over the slightest thing like Charlie the Unicorn and Detroit Rock City when i haven't even watch it yet. I was surfing Tumblr and saw print screens of that movie and it made my day each time i go back and just look at it. I can't wait to watch it. Its in the top of my To-Watch list now. I'm hungry. And i was digging my bag for my handphone, i found a packet of.. Bee Bee. Win! My all time favourite snack for only 10cents a packet. I am so easily contented! I realised i haven't had a proper meal since yesterday's breakfast at 9am. No dinner at home. Woke up to an empty stomach and a boring night after a pathetic 4 hours sleep to make up to my previous day of not sleeping. Wait.. Not so boring night because G managed to book out so 2 boring people entertained each other which turned out to be no so boring after all. And.. Thats when Charlie the Unicorn came in. So annoyingly yet amusingly hilarious. I am still waiting for my turn its been 45 minutes and i'm one of the last few in the class. The butterflies in my stomach now can like burst out anytime.. The teacher looks so aggresive and i am afraid i can't handle it. I feel like its day 1 at Ibis again.

I am very sure that i dont need to sleep tonight because of my report. Frankly speaking, i'm lost. I dont really know what to do because i forgot everything about Marketing. I read the notes and i still dont get it. I don't have the survey results i can't do my target market analysis. Thank god PF sent an email out which helped a lot, she included important points to guide me along. I wish i studied a little harder during year one. Last semester already. Cannot give up!